I have an opportunity in my day job for a new position with additional income, but I'm drowning in "what ifs". I already think I'm a bit commitment phobic, so the uncertainty of the unknown is getting to me.
What if I can't handle the hours?
What if I don't like it?
What if it doesn't give me time for family and friends?
What if I fail?
These are all completely stupid fears, but the mind doesn't always recognize reality from fiction. The one thing that sticks out the most though is that this is a great opportunity. I wanted to say yes when it was first offered, but my fear of commitment won out.
As an author we work from the 'what ifs' of life to create engaging characters, exciting plots, and twists and turns no one expects. We put our characters through these fearful things, because they make for great stories. When it's us authors who have these fearful things thrust upon us though, it's not so much fun.
The 'what ifs' of life can plague you to the point of becoming stagnant and not growing. That's not good for anyone's future.
I have a sign up on the wall of my office that says, 'Everything you want is on the other sided of fear'.
Such true words. If I'd let fear rule, I'd never have published a book. I'd miss all the awesome authors that I've come to know, and I'd never had met my best friend and fellow author, Kari Thomas.
I wish I knew the outcome of my decisions, but I guess that's not life. Living is about free will and the adventure that comes when you choose a path.
So, with all this in mind, I took the new job position and am off on another one of my adventures. Wish me luck!